"To My Son"
This letter was written the night of Tupac's death from the
cell of his stepfather, Mutulu Shakur, inside the federal
penitentiary in Florence, Cololoado.
I love you whenever....forever. Tupac, so much I needed to
say, so much you wanted to say. Many conversations between us
within the ether, whenever forever.
The pain inflicted that scarred your soul but not your spirit
gave force to the rebellion. Many couldn't see your dreams or
understand your nightmares. How could they, Tupac? I knew your
love and understood your passion. But you knew of your beginning
and saw your end....racing towards it.
You taught and fought through your songs and deeds.
RATT-TATT-TATT of words penetrating the contradiction of our
existence.
Whenever....forever
Who cares? We cared, Tupac. The Shakurs have been guided by
struggle, prepared or not, whenever....forever. We've exposed our
existence, naked from fear, to those who would hear the positive.
Who would witness the stress, wear and tear of this lonely path.
You couldn't have evaded the effect or the changes. You inherited
it, it was in your genes.
But still, you danced your dance, you lived your life. You forced
loyality on those who would fake and shake at the true vision.
You were Tupac
Like the four seasons, we come to this planet taking form,
becoming elements of nature, Some of us are only one season, and
others like you were part of many seasons. This dynamic will
scare most anyone who realized the burden at such an early stage
of life. You fought well. We love you. We understand....forever,
whenever.
Please give my love to our family. Ask them to help you on the
other side. Tell Zayd, Lumumba, Aby, Brother Leggs, Mtaryi,
Attallah, that they are to continue to help us down here.
Shakur's love is strong. Whenever....forever
Friday 13th didn't mean a thing. Life is for living and dying
well. Whenever.....forever. Allah knows best. We choose the
quality of our life. You understand the pain of disappointment in
the ones we love. You pushed so many away. Burnt so many bridges
so they wouldn't follow you into battles against the demons you
were facing. Knowing well to what lengths you would go. This
battlefield of reality is littered with many meaningless
casualties
You never yelled out "Somebody, save me!" You only
asked for your soul to be free, whenever....forever. You told us
to keep our head up, knowing the pain was coming. Knowing to look
for the strength in the heavens. Set your soul free, Tupac Amaru.
We keep waiting in vain for their love
Will your levitation be awakening of us all?
The division unsettling to our dreams and goals?
You passing demanding repentance and resistance?
We keep waiting, not in vain. We give you love. Give us love.
To my brother and son, these emotions are hell. I wish you well
in the next journey. My soul aches for comfort. In our next life
we will finish our unfinished journey. Whenever.....forever
For now Tupac, we will hold our heads up. This journey is at an
end, your ashes are in the wind. Friends and enimies will have to
look to the stars. You are truly a star. A star navigating
through the dynamics of this, your path chosen before you
arrived. Lessions we've gained will materialize after you're
gone. Whenever....forever
Your family will keep the spirit high, for we are Shakurs. We are
thankful for what life gives us. Through the pain and the
struggle we are blessed by the victory. Go forward, Tupac.
The victories---we will teach your mission, we are thankful for
you. We love you, Tupac Shakur. We ain't mad at you, we'll be
better because of you.
So now I give you my tears so I might assimilate your loss and I
can live on in peace.
Knowing I will feed your spirit with my unconditional love,
knowing you will need it on your next journey.
May Allah bless you for your deeds and forgive your errors.
Tupac come to me an give me strength.
Love always.
Your father, friend, comrade,
Mutulu